02 May 2006 -
i don't know. i think i'm pmsing seh. i was so high just now. being with the other trio. being mad. dong, yaya & vanessa. we were so darn damn crazy, and now i've gone all quiet. reflecting how much i'm losing my mind.

we played truth or dare after chem, under the block somewhere near.. urm, near nad's place. i go oh-so-"lucky". it was my turn, like almost 15 times. urgh. we went mad. they know my secret. i know theirs. thenn, they made me do the crazy dare. i had to walk in a drain, pole dance, and.. meditate in the middle of the road, sitting down. wth sia these pple. hees. it was fun though. [=

i'm officially 25bucks poorer on my birthday, thanks to my bestfriend lurh! xP haahaa.
















anyway, i don't know why. i'm just in the mood to adress the bimbo thingy. if fiqah don't feel that it makes a diff whether she's a bimbo or not, then, fine by me. if she doesn't care, fine by me. so much for these girls, being the girls i truly cherished and deeply cared for. so much for standing by my side when i needed them the most. thanks so much that this shit had to happen when i'm in bloody freaking fucking sec4. oh no, i'm not pissed. i'm fucking happy. damn. whatever happened to us? to our love? where did it all go? i should have seen it happening. only, i turned a close eye to it. it could never last anyway. no more hugs, kisses. nor warmth and concern.


















what did that girl go? where did the fiqah that i love go? why is she leaving me? where's the warm hug she used to give me? where's the kiss? where did our love go? vanished into thin air?


oh, i forgot. like as if i mattered huh. ya, like whatever. i don't matter to anyone. why in hell's name should they care about my feelings anyway. oh wait, that's a lie. i still got people who care. like guodong. (: but still, to them, i'm nothing. maybe that's why, they're constantly doing things that hurts. i'm hurt. whatever, like it makes a bloody difference in their lives. do you even get why i'm so uptight abt this? cause each every single one of you made a difference in my life. really. and it's only natural that i care about you back. that i wished i made a difference too. but like i said, i'm nothing. so, like whatever yeah.

I'm sitting here
Thinkin' 'bout
How I'm gonna do without
You around
In my life
And how am I, I gon' get by
Ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
If you want the truth
Well girl, I'm not alright
Feel out of place
And out of time
I think I'm gonna lose my mind


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nor liyana mohd khalis.

i'm always in love with pretty boys. like as if i don't learn from experience, i always give in to sweet words. and i never learn from the past. i'm vulnerable to hurt, but i'd like to believe i'm stronger than i seem.

jauh di dasar hatiku, aku tahu aku masih kasihimu dan menyintaimu. namun kau sudah berpunya, kau sudah bercinta. disini kita berakhir, tergantung segala cerita dan kisah lama.

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